Well, hello everyone out there!! So.... The last journal entry I wrote was in what... Febuary?? And in case you haven't guessed, I FINALLY got a new computer, which is now about 4 months old... -_-" Although this new one is starting to turn on me, as well... So, since the last journal I wrote was in Febuary, I felt the need to update a little. So, here I am, sitting at my desk racking my brain on what exactly to write ABOUT, and wondering who in the wide world cares or will read this anyway, save for maybe a handful of people.

So, now that I have actually gotten around to writing a journal, I have no idea WHAT to talk about. Summer? Well, I expect that it's nothing too exciting. Although I did go on a mission trip to Michigan. And right now, I'm sure some people are thinking "ugghh... This again" since I've talked to a couple people about it in excess. (or is it access?) But, be happy. That just means that I love you and want to share with you my lovely experiences (or not so lovely...) I learned on this trip that:

-The people in your youth group you plan on hanging out with the whole time may actually have other plans...
-The people in your youth group you DON'T plan on hanging out with may actually be your closest friends there
-You can actually learn to tolerate the people in your group that you HATE (strong word, but it's appropriate)
-Some people can be huge creepers. -_-"
-Total strangers sometimes are the best people to talk to
-Total strangers also have really, REALLY interesting pasts
-And that I never realized how much you can really miss a total stranger.

There were other lessons I was taught as well, but I won't bore those that are reading this right now. One huge thing, rather sad really, that I learned that week, was perhaps that the group of friends that I feel closest to, are no longer the people I have grown up in the church with, but are instead my friends from school. In my youth group, I have one friend I've known for a long time, and I planned on spending time with her, and perhaps getting close with her again like we used to be. Well, so much for that. She has another friend in the group that I was well aware of, but I had no idea that they were so close that I could be totally left out of the picture... This hit me pretty hard on Tuesday night, and I realized how badly I wanted to call someone from back at home and just bawl my eyes out because I was feeling utterly lonely, but my mom had taken my phone before we left... >< So I ended up just talking to my uncle. Thank god he was there. Later, I ended up calling my parents and crying to them. That was the first time in YEARS that I had cried in front of anyone. On thursday, I ended up telling this whole story to someone I had just met that week. Thank god for strangers, as well. Yeah, yeah, stranger danger and all of that. But they really did save my life on that trip.

I actually have much more to write about now that I think of it, but I'll have to get around to it later, seeing as my brothers are here reading over my shoulder and begging me to get off...Well, enough ranting about my fantastic experiences. Despite the fact that this is the longest journal entry out of all of four that I've written, it's probably still going to look pretty short... But hopefully I'll get the urge to write like this again soon. But for now, I hope you all are having a good summer!! ^_^